SatyrVine's  Blog

though peace can be found in any place or situation if one remembers the feeling of peace, the sound of silence; the cool beauty of the earth can be felt, even if it is a hundred feet below the cement, asphalt, pipes and wires, yes; but there is a specific pleasure in being able to release all effort, feel safe, and rest in the loving aspect of existence. NYC isn’t really about that for me. i don’t rest terribly well here.
i have had many lovers here over the years, but i have always been their servant, it’s a beautiful and fascinating place of effort and achievement, of failure and desire
i’ve been valuing not interacting on those axis in recent years

though i miss giving massage to all the various men who benefit from it so much, who appreciate my efforts; who i can enjoy the myriad forms men can take

i am wishing to manifest some reality i can live in
barefoot and naked
when i want to be
amid the sounds of trees and water and animals
with a man or men i can meditate with
practice body movements of health and peace with
(exercise & yoga & qigong & tai chi)
and massage each other
as a daily joy
as a language of loving

it’s a nice wish for the new moon

want to join me?

i’m always in love with NYC when i return from being away. . . this time of year is amazing. . . i’m completely enrapt with the beauty of the city right now.
i had not given a full massage since November (just pieces on lovers and family) and my love of the city and massage has me wanting to move back here just so i can give massages all the time again. . . to be able to touch someone with care, pleasure, appreciation. . . to help them feel better than however they felt before, to bring them a type of physical joy unique to massage . . . it’s a powerful experience. i love doing this almost more than anything. . . however, i also love listening to wind in the trees, bugs whirring, water burbling over rocks, waves crashing. . . grand open skies. . . i love walking barefoot on the earth and being totally naked under the sky. . . that’s much more difficult to experience here: when i close my eyes and tune into the soundscape is mostly the whir of machinery and every time i’ve sat in a beauty park to people watch and enjoy the flowers. . . there has been some crazy man screaming about whatever version of insanity he is lost in. NYC is rough if you value peace. . .

i’m laying naked in the garden right now
but fly into NYC tomorrow
i’m already booked up through saturday
but am really looking forward to giving massage regularly again
at least for the month of april

i hope you’ve all had good loving touch
and are feeling safe and grateful